Scream it out

I hate my life....it sucks.

'You get to your darkest point in life and the brightest light appears .

Home ,sweet home

Little princess sleeps here.

Memo board

Gold pig $_$ Cha-Ching

DIY heart shape cushion

 Her stuff

Heart shape charm

Note book

Silly monkey say hi

some stuffs

earing

necklaces

bracelets

rings

Get to know me

1 I don't like to travel,  I’m a nervous flyer.
2 I don't like guys wear glasses.love at the first sign?no way.
3 I don't do drinking or smoking.
4 I don't like the big white wedding.the fewer people the better.I am not that kind of girl who grow up planning her wedding.
5 I don't like fizzy drinks.
6 I don't like burger.hot dog.kebab.brown rice,i don't like peas and beans,just looking at them will make me sick,Physically and emotionally.
7 I don't like maths.don't like anything to to with the numbers.
8 I don't like kawaii, it makes me look silly,
9  I don't like to keep pet.
10 I don't like the bus.
11 I don't like camping.
12 I hate when it is windy.it mess up my hair and my brain.
13 I don't like too many people surround me,
14 I don't like any forms of exercise, indoor or outdoor.
15 I don't like to speak to the strangers.
16 I don't like horror films.

1 I like reading ,day dreaming .sleeping,writing, eating, singing,skating.

2 I like English tea, cake. sushi. Vietnam street  food,i can't get enough of it, Chinese Dimsum, mushroom,seafood.

3 I like when it is raining.like that freshness afterwards.

4 I like summer

5 I like guy older than me ,wiser than me,  at least knows better than me.

6  I like to be alone.

7 My favorite color is purple, blue and green,because i like trees.

8 My favorite fruite is mango,pineapple.peach.

9 My favorite flower is jasmine ,

10 I like DIY,that kind of handicrafted thing'.i am also that kind of DIY  person when it comes to beauty treatment, i don't like strangers to touch my face or body.

11 I like shopping.yeah.shop till you drop.

12 I like Christmas.i like to shower my love ones with all the lovely things they deserve.
13 I like handbags.absolutely a bag girl.
14 I like collecting jewellery.

Some random facts

I am the odd one in my family.

I can not swim.

I have stomach pain when i am nervous.

I yawning whenever i tell lies.

I drank at least two cups of tea a day.
I can't cook for life.
I believe in aliens.the universe is bigger than you think. you haven't seen it doesn't mean that it isn't existing.

Sometimes my head is full of that crazy ideas,but just don't have the guts to start over.

Miss HK,no, thanks.

That's why i never stood a chance to win that title,it is not that i don't want to show but there is nothing worth of showing at the first place.
1,i am too old 
2,i am married .......with kid
3,do not have an angelis face to dazzle the judges
4,do not have a killer body for bikini,the moment i come out of the pool,i warp me up with a extra large beach towel.sneak back as soon as i can.
5,do not have the quick wit and spontaneity,i just don't want to get it started, it is so embarrassing,whenever i come front the big audience,i was like sweating,headaches,stomach pain,all in one,any excuse,er?just wish the earth will open swallow me up.
6,i don't have that crazy grin permanently plaster on my face.i am quite moody,sometime i am just a nut case.
i don't want to say things i really don't mean to. he is a billionaire though..just keep on smiling,it will be your job, it is not bad as you are laughing all the way to your bank. Cha-Ching.$_$

 quite busy those weeks as i am learning driving and preparing for the test.finger cross.

my driving instructor is a lovely guy,i leant a lot from him.he is very funny too,he said that no one can beat his wife's Sunday roast.what a statement.how sweet is that!^_^
He said you can time and judge other drivers' intention.
i asked  what if you fail or things turn out to be otherwise.
and he said so this is what a break for.
BTW,i am learning manual.

How to save a life

There's one of my favorite songs from The Fray.


Step one. you say we need to talk
He walks .you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on thr.ough.
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame,
You begin to wonder why you came.

Where did I go wrong,? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night.
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best,
Cause after all you do know best.
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong.
The things you've told him all along.
And pray to God he hears you.
And pray to God he hears you.

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong,? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness.
And I would have stayed up with you all night.
Had I known how to save a life

Ten years on

I still the same old me,I am not wiser as I get older,deep down my heart I am still that little girl who scared of everything,she is so insecure.she lost herself somewhere.somehow. You can see the death behind her eyes.No one can fix her.

Too little too late. If only I knew then

As i live

what my expectation of life will be after the divorce?  i don't know, 
a sense of  release ? my world will be totally messed up?
i really don't know.
i am not yet there.
i just know that before i knew him,i didn't have a life to be ruined .
he gave me more than i would ask,
he took me more than i could give.
Till death do us part? I bury my head in shame.

How can you tell it is over. Read bellow

I want out.

i am very tired in this relationship.
I am in the middle of nowhere .

I don't know how it was started,but i know exactly how did it end.

he doesn't love me any more

.his eyes ain't shinning the light of love.

we don't even bother to see each other .

we pretend that everything will be all right.

we just cheated ourselves,

either of us wants to face the fact that it is over.

yes, it is over.

time would not heal.i don't know how to move beyond the pain.
you don't want to let go but you have to.
there are tears and hugs.
but the closure is hard to accept.

and i am going to lose the one i love the most.

Just a thought ---Nothing is forever

The sad truth is when love dies,jewellery instantly loses its sparkle , you don't want to wear them,you don't want to see them,they are reminders of all the dashed hopes and empty dreams.and all those broken promises.

Disguised angel

I feel so small when i confront the mother nature.
i come to this world with nothing but gone with the sin.
i am not an angel,and never try to pretend to be one.
i am  a nobody, i don't have voice.
no matter what life throws at me, i just take it as it is , 
i dare not to challenge the Lord and question his existence.
i just know that his hand would never touch me no matter how low i  was .
i can't find anything real in this world.
i lost my faith.
i lost everything that once made me who i was.
i am drown under his eyes.
he even didn't try to reach out of his hands.
he chose what to see.
i am not his angel.
i am not the brightest bulb.
i can smile when i am sad.
i can fake it whenever it is needed.
i can be everything but innocent.
he doesn't want me.i should have known better.

Calling from the wild

 I am living in my own world where is frightening dark.and nothing can drag me out of it.
Every saint has a past.

Alone in the dark

There are times I feel blessing,it seems I have more than I had ever dreamt of. There are times I feel sad,he is not exactly What I thought that he might be.

It all about the ......little cow

some stuffs

I love expensive bags but I hate label,I don't care about who made it as long as it looks nice and is in good quality, I don't want to promote any manufacturer,I would never carry an instantly Recongnizable Hand bag like A logo LV,as many chinese do.They made the bag look cheap and tacky,some even try to fake it, All in all. They are seen everywhere.Even the real one lost its charm to me.you don't want to be one of those sheeps.